Mellifluous Mourning

"I am no longer on my way from one place to another. I have changed lives."

-- Ted Simon, Jupiter’s Travels

I think perhaps I should read this book, being a child of Jupiter as I am.

Regardless, this quote feels very right to me just now, very applicable, as I really have changed lives. Looking back it feels as though the last three and a half to four years have really been very transitional. Of course we're always changing, but sometimes change comes to me in these massive swells. And there's always a hint, a whisper, a sensation that says 'Woah! Time to grab your surf board and ride, a BIG WAVE is coming...' and yet it's often so hard to see while you're in the wave...

But in the wake, all is quite clear.

Featherfall

I bought a book on Healing with Angels today.

I have to admit it was a difficult thing for me to do and reading the book is also proving somewhat discomforting. This is mostly due to the author's continued reference to God the identity of Deity and the use of the male pronoun in reference to such. Personally I am far more comfortable with 'God' as 'The Divine Accumulation of all that is Living/Loving' which is a very non-person-like concept and most decidedly genderless. I am intent on reading the book through however.

Several signs, some while awake, several while dreaming and one on a journey, have brought Angels to my attention and most recently, a sign which drew not only myself, but my mother when I spoke with her about it, to the author of this book's works on Angels.

Certainly I have a great deal of my own healing to do still, I always will I expect, from some of the things that I carry. Perhaps this Angel work will allow me to release it entirely but the darkest one I doubt I can let go of entirely. We shall see... that's what this is supposed to help with if I allow it! We'll see if I can get past the male God words.

I find myself wishing I had my mother and my soul-sister Delilah here to have tea with and speak with. Heck, any of my good friends and family who have a spiritual leaning would do. But they are all across the ocean and I am here in this gorgeous green land with no one who has an interest in the divine to share with. I do feel quite alone at times.

I think I need a good solid listen of Pink Floyd's 'Wish You Were Here'. Though a bit depressing it's beautiful regardless... best follow it with something rather more up beat, perhaps Fleetwood Mac's 'Don't Stop (Thinkin' About Tomorrow)'. <3